Wednesday, 10 June 2009

• Then I Think About Being Done With My Resume

  So we took this thing called the enneagram test. It's like the Myers-Briggs personality test, except cooler. Here are some links, try it out for yourself.
  
  http://similarminds.com/cgi-bin/similarminds.pl
  http://www.9types.com/
  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enneagram_of_Personality
  
  I am a 4. This is what wikipedia says about 4s.
  
  

  General characteristics

  The desire to create and seek meaning is emphasized in the Individualist. They are emotionally driven, passionate people, who want to be recognized as special and distinguished from others. They are, at their best, compassionate, empathetic, and refined. This often leads them to artistic endeavors of various sorts, or alternatively, to relationships that would bring them intense feelings whether sublime or despairing. On the other hand, their emotional turbulances and excess fantasizing can cause difficulties with living in the moment, often wallowing in the past and obsessing over the future, chronic dissatisfaction and depression often result, as well as conflicts with others.

  Motivations

  Passion / Fixation: Envy

  Basic Fear: "To have no identity and personal significance". Personal identity is felt tentatively by Fours, which they compensate by cultivating a fantasy or ideal self that would in one way or another define them. They fear ordinariness.

  Basic Desire: 'To find themselves and their significance'. Fours heighten their experience with imagination and emotional reactions. They see beauty in suffering, and will hold on painful moods if those give them meaning.

  Parental Orientation: Disconnected from both parents, since "neither can understand". Creates longing in self for a "good parent" - a saviour - who can understand them. It is not that fours do not want to express their feelings, they just want someone to discover them; and frequently make people work too hard to find out what they are.

  Personal theme

  From a very early age Fours felt singled out by others. They see the various personal qualities others have that are not given to them, which causes them to focus on absence, on differences and on personal alienation. They are the gray ducklings poked fun of by their bright-feathered peers and abandoned by their parents. They are the orphans and outcasts.

  In time, however, they began to feel that they are singled out for a reason. They interpreted their alienation and suffering as evidence of their finer sensibilities. Even their personal defects, which in the beginning tormented them, are now worn as marks of pride. In their psychic recesses, however, there remains an emptiness longing to be filled by another and it is that emptiness, that tension between lack and fulfillment, which drives Fours in a search for meaning and personal identity. Unfortunately, given their fixations on fantasy and comparison with others, this search can often feel and become fruitless.

  
  

  
  

  Sounds more depressing than it is.

  Camp is awesome.
  

  
  
  

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